For a short while, Ling Lan continued to tap  open videos and watch them. They were all videos of daily life made by  her younger brother. Some had something to do with her and some didn't.
However,  no matter what it was, her dad, mom and younger brother would always  mention Ling Lan in the videos. They sincerely hoped that Ling Lan could  get better and return home.
Ling Lan quickly scrolled through everything. Suddenly, a filename caught her eye.
It was named "I'm finally useful as well."
The  videos before this were all named with the numbers automatically given  to the file. This sudden appearance of this name made Ling Lan open it  with curiosity.
The first frame of the video was an acceptance  letter to a university. Her younger brother's voice echoed from outside  of the camera frame, "Sis, do you see it. I got accepted into  university."
His long fingers turned the camera away from the  acceptance letter to his smiling face along with his acceptance letter  beside his head.
"Medical department of B university. The top  ranked medical academy in the entire country. Isn't your little brother  amazing? Sis, you have to remember to praise me later, okay?"
Ling  Lan suddenly remembered that the year she left the world was the year  when her younger brother was taking his entrance exams.
She  seemed to have never asked her brother what school he wanted to get  into. Every time they met, he would only call her 'sis' and then sit  quietly on the side while listening to her and letting their parents  speak. Quiet and scanty with words was Ling Lan's impression of her  younger brother. However, in the videos, he was so lively…
Ling  Lan had thought that this younger brother of hers, who she would not see  more than twice in a year, would have little to no feelings for her.  They had never had any deep talks with each other. Ling Lan felt it was  already enough that her younger brother didn't look down on her for  being a burden to the entire family so she didn't dare to hope for more.  However, now, Ling Lan seemed to not be so certain of her own thoughts.
Her younger brother originally smiled brightly, but it slowly  became forced. He put his head down and rubbed his eyes with his hands.  Then, he raised his head as his expression returned to the radiant one  from before, but his eyes were still red. There were still tears on the  corner of his eyes that hadn't been wiped off.
"That's why, sis,  you have to keep holding on. Wait seven years and I will make you  better." Her younger brother's expression was stern. It was as though  Ling Lan was sitting on the end of the video camera.
Ling Lan was  shocked for a moment. Her younger brother from her previous life was  actually like Li Shiyu. He walked the path of becoming a doctor for her.
"Where have they been all this time?" Ling Lan raised her head and looked at Li Shiyu coldly.
"Oh?  You finally want to know?" Li Shiyu leaned against the wall with his  arms crossed in front of his chest as he spoke plainly.
Ling Lan closed her eyes to calm herself down. Her emotions were  fluctuating too much. Usually, when her emotions were fluctuating much,  she would make the wrong judgments.
When she opened them again,  Ling Lan's eyes returned to the calmness she once had. She looked down  towards the cell phone. This time, she chose to look at the pictures and  not the videos.
Li Shiyu's expression changed slightly. He  didn't think that the intuition of a girl on the brink of death was this  good. She managed to choose the direction where she could possibly find  the answer.
The pictures were mostly named with their dates.  Ling Lan picked a few by their dates. Most of them were family photos.  She quickly scrolled down and saw 'Contract Page 1'. She quickly tapped  it open.
It was a copy of a job contract. It was a land survey  contract outside of the country. If it was what she thought it was  supposed to be, this was related to her father. Ling Lan remembered that  her father was a land surveyor, and when she saw her father's signature  on 'Contract Page 6', it solidified her thought.
"Did my parents leave the country while my younger brother is studying at B university?" asked Ling Lan.
"The  salary outside of the country is relatively high. They asked me about  your condition. I told them that even if it could be cured, the recovery  afterwards would still cost a fortune. It was a bottomless pit. They  had also thought about it for a long time before deciding to go out of  the country to earn more money," Li Shiyu said calmly. "As for your  younger brother, his first three years were indeed spent at B  university, but now he's not there… He was too good in his studies so he  was sent to Country M to further his studies."
"That's good."  Ling Lan finally felt relieved when he knew her family was doing well  without her. As for meeting them… she was no longer the Ling Lan from  the previous life, so she wasn't tied down by her past life. She didn't  care about it anymore.
"That's why they haven't been here to see  you. Wait a few more years and you'll be able to see them. Don't  misunderstand them anymore." Li Shiyu's voice echoed softly.
Ling  Lan's eyes narrowed instantly. Her hands were clenched so tightly that  the cell phone in her hand made a few cracking sounds.
She slowly  put her head down and gazed upon the screen of the cell phone once  again. She chose to use time to organize all the files. The most recent  videos and pictures were from three years ago.
Ling Lan's fingers trembled slightly as she tapped on the latest video.
"Sis,  summer vacation is over. It's time for me to return to B university.  Not long after, mom and dad will also go to another country to work.  We're all working hard, so you have to work hard too. Sis, mom and dad  said you are our family's toughest and most sensible child. They said if  I even learned 30% from your tenacity, I would have been an army  commander in this life. I don't know how much I could learn from you  right now, but I will definitely acquire the spot to go to Country M to  fully develop myself. When that happens, I will definitely make a video  to tell you." Her younger brother held in his fist while facing the  camera. It was to cheer her on and also possibly to make his promise.
"Lanlan,  we took your brother to the train station. We also have to prepare to  go to the airport. In the future, we can only come back on your birthday  to see you. Your brother taught us how to video chat. Even if we're in  another country, we'll still be able to video chat with you. Lanlan, no  matter how far apart we are, you will always be our most treasured and  loved daughter." Her mother's kind smiling face appeared in the video.  Her father was sitting on the side. When he saw the camera looking his  way, he moved his head away slightly. However, after her mother used her  elbow to nudge him, her father could only face the camera. The serious  look on his face slowly melted into a smile that was deemed to be warm  by him. He then nodded his head at the camera.
It was just like  how it was in the past. Her father in her past life never liked to show  his feelings. He wasn't like her other father, Ling Xiao, who liked to  show his love for his daughter and wouldn't let her neglect him. He  would even get jealous of her mother if the two of them got too close.  Although Ling Lan didn't know whether Ling Xiao was jealous of her  mother or of her.
Although they had different ways of expressing their love for her, the love both of her fathers had for her were genuine.
Ling Lan had tears form in the corner of her eyes as they slowly trickled down her face.
From quietly sobbing, to crying loudly in the end.
"Ling  Lan, what's wrong? Ling Lan, don't cry. Don't cry. Crying is bad for  your body." Ling Lan's loud crying stunned Luo Chao and Han Xuya.
Li Shiyu's expression darkened. He knew that he couldn't fool Ling Lan.
"Let her cry. Crying will be better for her," Li Shiyu stopped Luo Chao and Han Xuya from trying to comfort her.
Han  Xuya and Luo Chao looked at Li Shiyu. They didn't understand why  explaining the misunderstanding would cause Ling Lan to be this sad if  it was a happy thing.
Li Shiyu sighed. These three girls were  around the same age. Compared to the intelligent Ling Lan, his two  nurses were too naive.
"Returning to this time period is to make  me see who is the one that is actually cold and heartless. It's you,  Ling Lan! Not your parents nor your brother, they were always there  cheering you on, but you were too selfish to realize it. From the  beginning and to the very end, the most selfish person was you. The  person you loved the most was also you. You escaped from the possible  pain you could have felt and chose to love yourself in the way that  benefits yourself the most. It was always you and not others. No matter  if it was the previous life or this life, they are all the same. The  so-called dominance, so-called freedom, are all to cater to your  selfishness. Ling Lan, that your real self."
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