Chapter 3
VOLUME 8 – THE VANISHED SPIRIT
file 03: ensou (TRANSLATION NOTES)
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Gotou and Yakumo went to something like a hut connected to the main temple by a corridor .
It was fairly dark; only two bare light bulbs hung from the ceiling .
It was a Japanese room of about ten tatami in size . Right past the entrance, there was a short Japanese-style writing desk . The rest was buried in books .
‘Amazing,’ said Gotou in admiration, but Yakumo started searching without any care for that .
'What are you looking for?’
Gotou didn’t understand the situation, so he didn’t know why Yakumo had come to this archive .
Yakumo’s hands suddenly stopped . He ran a hand through his hair, looking annoyed .
'Seidou-san was a meticulous person . I think he may have kept something like a diary . ’
'A diary, eh…’
Gotou muttered that as he started looking for a diary in the piled-up books and accounts .
Though it was just picking up books and checking the contents, all of the words were difficult to read .
Gotou had never been good at simple work like this .
He lost his concentration in no time .
'Hey, Yakumo,’ said Gotou, his hands stopping .
'What is it?’
'You said that the girl wasn’t reincarnated, right?’
Yakumo appeared to have understood the answer already, but there were too many things Gotou didn’t understand .
'Yes,’ Yakumo replied curtly .
'Then what is she?’
'She is who she is . ’
Yakumo sent a glare Gotou’s way .
Even if he looked at him with such scary eyes, Gotou couldn’t understand the meaning of Yakumo’s words .
'She is who she is… It’s like some Zen question . ’
'It isn’t a Zen question . I’m saying she is nothing but herself . Even if she did have memories of the past, she would still be who she is . ’
Yakumo’s words were like some mathematics problem, inviting sleep .
Gotou yawned .
'How complicated . ’
'No . It’s simple . ’
'Sounds complicated to me . ’
'Should I explain it with a picture book?’ Yakumo’s expression softened as he said that .
'You making fun of me?’
'Good job; you understood . ’
Yakumo applauded .
It seemed like he was seriously making fun of him . Gotou clicked his tongue .
'This isn’t the time to be making stupid jokes, right?’
'What a coincidence . I was just thinking that I didn’t have the time to waste it talking with you, Gotou-san . ’
– This brat never shuts up .
Though Gotou was irritated, he was happy to be able to talk with Yakumo like this again .
'Gotou-san, if you don’t feel like helping, could you check the situation with Ishii-san?’
'Ishii, eh…’
Gotou looked up at the ceiling .
Come to think of it, he hadn’t been able to talk properly with Ishii this time .
Before coming to the temple, Yakumo appeared to have made a request of Ishii . Gotou wanted to know what happened after that too .
That said, since it was Ishii, he had probably just wandered around without doing anything useful .
'I’ll go call then . ’
Gotou stood up, but then he noticed a great problem .
'Oi . Yakumo . ’
'What is it?’
'I don’t have a phone . ’
Yakumo had thrown Gotou’s mobile phone on to some guy’s truck .
'Can’t you just borrow one from Eishin-san?’ said Yakumo, flipping through the accounts .
That was right . He’d borrowed Eishin’s mobile while they were waiting outside the temple too . He could just do the same thing . But –
'Where’s he?’
'Probably the temple . ’
Gotou left the archive, but then he noticed another problem .
'I don’t know his number . ’
Since the mobile phone had become explosively popular, people would just rely on the contacts list – nobody remembered other people’s numbers any more .
Gotou didn’t remember other people’s numbers either .
'Here . ’
As Yakumo said that, he threw something at Gotou .
Though he was surprised, Gotou caught it in front of his chest . It was an SD card for a mobile phone .
'The number is on there . ’
Now, Gotou recalled what Yakumo had said about moving the data and put the SD card in his pocket .
'I’m going out for a bit . ’
'Ah, that’s right . ’
Yakumo called out to Gotou as he was about to leave .
'What?’
'If the autopsy results for the corpse are out, please tell him to ask Hata-san for information .
'Yeah, yeah . ’
After replying, Gotou left Yakumo in the archive and went to the temple through the corridor .
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Ishii was irritated as he sat in the passenger seat
Rain hit the window .
'It’s really pouring,’ said Youko as she drove .
'It seems like a typhoon,’ replied Ishii, staring out the window with bitterness .
It was because the typhoon was coming .
The rain was melancholy, fanning Ishii’s anxiety .
– Somebody’s dead .
The call Ishii received in the family restaurant was from Makoto .
Though her voice was shaking, she managed to keep her calm as she explained the events in order .
After receiving the information, Ishii immediately left the shop and was going to the scene in Youko’s car .
Though it was only forty minutes, it felt incredibly long to Ishii .
'It’s just ahead . ’
Youko turned the wheel left .
Ishii could tell where the scene was right away . There was yellow tape around the area to stop people from trespassing and around it, there were curious onlookers and people from the press .
There were lights for the investigation and for cameras . Though it was night, it was as bright as noon .
'This is serious,’ murmured Youko as she drove .
'It is…’
So many things had happened .
Starting with the discovery of Seidou’s corpse, Yakumo’s name came up as a suspect, the second corpse was found, Gotou became a fugitive while aiding Yakumo’s escape, and then Haruka and Makoto found the third victim – d
To be honest, Ishii was so frightened and confused he didn’t know what to do .
However, he managed to keep himself together because Haruka and Makoto had been the ones who first discovered the corpse .
– I have to keep it together .
Led on by that impulse, Ishii opened the door and ran out the moment the car stopped .
The cold rain wet his cheek .
'Sorry, excuse me . ’
As Ishii shouted that, he pushed through the crowd .
He showed his police ID to the uniformed officers there and tried to pass through the yellow tape, but somebody grabbed his arm .
'Excuse me, but this is out of your jurisdiction, isn’t it?’
The young uniformed officer looked at Ishii with suspicious eyes .
'Ah, yes, but…’
Ishii couldn’t think of an excuse to enter right away .
He thought it was annoying himself . At times like this, Gotou would have just said something like 'Shut up’ and forced himself in, but Ishii couldn’t do that .
He had just run forward with the want to go in, which made things even more unnatural .
'Natsume, from Criminal Affairs . I’m bringing him along . He can come in with me, right?’
Youko had come up behind him and said that as she showed her police ID . It was a firm attitude that didn’t allow anyone to doubt it .
'Ah, yes . Please go ahead . ’
The uniformed officer looked divided but he let Ishii and Youko pass .
'Thank you . ’
After thanking Youko, Ishii went past the yellow tape .
He spotted Haruka and Makoto sitting by the flower garden in front of the apartment .
The two of them looked exhausted, but it didn’t seem like they were injured . Ishii sighed in relief and went up to them .
'Ishii-san . ’
Makoto noticed Ishii immediately and stood up .
'Are you all right?’
'Yes . ’
Makoto’s voice was clear .
Ishii looked towards Haruka .
Though she stood up, she stayed silent . It was clear she wasn’t feeling well .
She had found a corpse that was stabbed all over . There was no helping it .
'I can’t believe things turned out like this…’ said Makoto, putting her hands together in front of her chest .
'It really is a serious matter . ’
Ishii agreed with Makoto .
This case had gone beyond their expectations .
'Are they the ones?’ said Youko, sounding curious .
'Ah, yes, that’s right . ’
For a moment, Ishii was confused as to why Youko knew Haruka and Makoto, but then he remembered that he’d talked to her about the investigation .
'This is Ozawa Haruka-chan and Hijikata Makoto-san . ’
Ishii introduced each of them to Natsume . He was going to introduce Youko, but she showed her police ID before he could .
'I’m Natsume of the Nishitama precinct,’ said Youko promptly .
'Excuse me…“
Haruka opened her mouth like she wanted to talk about it .
'I’ve heard most of the situation from Ishii-san . To be honest, I think Saitou Yakumo isn’t the culprit of this case either . ’
Youko said that in a quiet voice after looking around .
'Is that so?’
Though Ishii said that in his surprise, he understood soon after .
Come to think of it, if Youko still doubted Yakumo, she wouldn’t have cooperated so much .
It could be said that he had gained a powerful ally .
'Detective Ishii, I’m going to go look at the scene, but…’
Youko looked up at the door to the room where the corpse was found .
– I don’t want to see it .
The corpse had been stabbed all over . If possible, he didn’t want to step into such a grisly place .
He had just one reason . He was afraid .
However, he was in front of Haruka and Makoto, and he felt like he wouldn’t be able to see the truth of the case if he didn’t look at it himself .
'I’ll go too,’ said Ishii in a trembling voice . Then, he started following Youko up the stairs to the second storey .
His legs were shaking .
He really was frightened . But he couldn’t go back now .
At the door, Ishii’s mobile phone rang with good timing .
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Gotou opened the sliding door to the temple .
It was quiet –
All he could hear was the sound of the pouring rain .
Eishin was sitting in the middle of the temple with his hand in some sort of religious gesture .
He had his spine straight and was looking straight forward – he was as still as if he had become Buddha .
Though his half-open eyes seemed hollow, there was a strong light in them .
Gotou didn’t understand the heart of Zen, but as Eishin sat there, it looked like he was emitting some mysterious aura .
'Oi . ’
Though Gotou called out, Eishin didn’t move .
– Did he not hear me?
'Oi, you damn monk . ’
Gotou called out again while walking up to Eishin .
'I know you’re there even without all that noise,’ said Eishin .
When he spoke, only his lips moved – it was creepy, like he was a talking mechanical doll .
'f you know, then reply . ’
Gotou sat cross-legged in front of Eishin .
'What do you want?’
'That’s quite a tone . I can’t think of you as Isshin’s teacher,’ said Gotou, expressing his dissatisfaction .
Suddenly, the days Gotou had spent with Isshin came to mind .
Isshin was a broadminded man . He was always gentle and kind to everyone . Just seeing that smile would make Gotou feel better for some reason .
– Why did Isshin have to die?
Gotou still thought that sometimes now .
'You say that because you don’t know what Isshin was like before . ’
Eishin breathed out, relaxing his body . His face became more human, like he had taken off a mask .
'What do you mean?’
'Isshin is very similar to Yakumo . ’
Gotou didn’t understand what Eishin said .
'What part of him?’
'Before Isshin took Yakumo in, he had been terribly troubled . At one point, he denied his own existence . ’
'Denied?’
'He was filled with anger that had no outlet – he always had a grim expression on his face . ’
'That guy did?’
Gotou really didn’t understand .
No matter how Gotou searched his memories, Isshin was always smiling in them .
'Because he found out the truth . ’
'The truth?’
Gotou didn’t understand .
He felt like they were talking about somebody else entirely .
'It’s not like Isshin was at fault, but because of his personality, he tried to shoulder all the blame . ’
'What are you talking about?’
'You could call it fate…’
Eishin stared into nothingness .
– Fate?
'You talking about Yakumo?’
'Yakumo is only one part of a larger flow . I’m talking about a fate that continued from much before then . Everything started in this temple, when a man and woman met . ’
'Explain in a way I’ll understand . ’
Gotou pressed Eishin for an answer in his irritation .
However, Eishin continued, still staring into nothingness .
'Isshin compared that fate with his own existence . At that time, he had forgotten heart of ensou, which is the basis of Zen .
'Ensou?’
'That’s right . If the heart is not in order, one cannot see clearly . Isshin’s fate had shaken his heart . ’
Gotou really didn’t understand what Eishin was talking about .
He didn’t understand, but for some reason, he was curious .
'So then what happened?’
'The one who changed Isshin’s heart was Yakumo . ’
Eishin’s lips relaxed into a small smile .
He alone held all the cards . That was how it looked like to Gotou .
'What part of Yakumo changed Isshin?’
'His existence . By walking with Yakumo, Isshin was able to face his fate . He became his original self . ’
'What’s that fate you’re talking about?’
'You know as well . It’s that man . ’
Eishin’s mouth shut tightly .
Gotou knew who that man was .
'The man with two red eyes?’
'That’s right . Isshin has a connection with that man that cannot be cut . ’
'Isshin was just wrapped up in the incident, right?’ said Gotou offhandedly .
'Wrong . ’
Eishin shook his head .
'What do you mean?’
Without responding to Gotou’s question, Eishin stood up .
'Answer me . ’
Gotou continued to hound Eishin .
'You’ll understand soon enough . More importantly, what did you come here for?’
Eishin sudden changed the subject .
Stopping the conversation right before the crucial point – he really was just like Yakumo . Eishin probably wouldn’t say anything no matter what Gotou asked . Gotou gave in and stood up .
'I want to ask a favour . ’
'Do you want me to introduce you to a woman?’
There was a lascivious smirk on Eishin’s face .
Even though he was so solemn when meditating, there was not even a fragment of that now .
'I’ve got a wife . ’
'So you’re more proper than you look . ’
– It really didn’t sound like something a monk should say .
'That isn’t the problem . Anyway, I came to borrow your mobile . ’
'What do you say when asking for a favour?’ said Eishin with a laugh .
He really was like Yakumo .
'Please lend me your mobile . I would greatly appreciate it . ’
Gotou buried his anger in the pit of his stomach as he lowered his head .
'You should have been honest like that from the start,’ said Eishin while taking his mobile out for Gotou .
– Meditating with his mobile there – what an awful monk .
Gotou said abusive words in his heart while taking the mobile .
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'Excuse me . ’
After saying that to Youko, Ishii stepped away from the door .
The number on his mobile was unfamiliar to him . Who could it be –
Though confused, Ishii answered the phone .
'Hello . ’
– Detective Gotou!
Ishii was about to yell that, but he hurriedly stopped himself .
'P-please wait . ’
There were police officers everywhere . If they found out he was talking with Gotou, it would be a seroius problem .
Ishii looked around for a place he could talk without being watched .
The first and second floors were filled with people, but there were practically none on the third .
'I apologise for the wait,’ said Ishii after walking to the outside corridor of the third floor .
Gotou sounded displeased .
'Ah, actually…’
Ishii explained in detail everything they had investigated up until now, including how Haruka and Makoto had found a corpse .
Though it was quite the complicated story, Ishii focussed on explaining chronologically, as Yakumo always tolod him to .
Gotou didn’t interrupt, which was unusual .
Gotou said just that after Ishii finished his explanation .
'It is a bit confusing . ’
Ishii had run about frantically up until now, but once he heard Gotou’s voice, he relaxed a bit and became weak .
His eyes were becoming wet with tears .
Gotou said that .
– Why is he apologising?
Ishii was confused . Though Gotou always got angry at him, he never apologised . Rather, Ishii was the one who wanted to apologise .
He had planned on investigating frantically to make a place for Gotou to return to, but there had been no developments at all .
He was completely useless like this .
'I’m the one who must apologise . If I had been more reliable…’
'Eh?’
Gotou’s voice was quiet and weak .
– Don’t talk like that .
Ishii murmured that in his heart .
'Please don’t worry about someone like me . Detective Gotou, I believe in you and Yakumo-shi . That’s why I’m working . That’s all . ’
Ishii wasn’t lying .
It was true that he had been a bit troubled earlier, but that had gone away completely .
Gotou snorted .
Was that praise? Or was it a reprimand? Ishii didn’t know .
He just felt that Gotou’s voice sounded a bit stronger .
'Detective Gotou . ’
'If there’s anything I can do, please tell me . If you want to flee overseas, I will help prepare . ’
'That’s right . ’
'Of course,’ Ishii replied immediately .
He would do anything if it would allow Gotou to come back, no matter what sacrifices he had to make .
'Please consider it done!’ declared Ishii .
'Yes sir!’
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After ending the call, Gotou returned to the archive where Yakumo was .
It looked like he had finished searching already, as he was sitting cross-legged at the Japanese-style desk while reading an account book written by hand .
The way he looked – wearing a monk’s working clothes while reading accounts – was incredibly fitting .
'Is it interesting?’
When Gotou spoke, Yakumo turned around with an incredibly displeased look .
'It’s a matter of subjectivity . ’
'Are you saying I wouldn’t be able to enjoy it?’
'You can’t read, right?’
'Shut up!’
Gotou said that with a click of his tongue as he sat down on the tatami .
'So how was it?’ said Yakumo, turning his eyes to the account book again .
'Things turned serious . ’
Gotou told Yakumo what Ishii had just told him .
At points, Yakumo interrupted, saying things like 'In more concrete terms…’, but he seriously listened to Gotou .
'I see . ’
After Gotou finished speaking, Yakumo shut the account book and lifted his head .
His eyes looked unusually sharp .
'Did you figure something out?’
'There are still a number of things I need to confirm, but I can see the outline of the case . ’
Yakumo ran a hand through his hair .
'So Ishii was of some use then . ’
'Yes . Actually, this time, I have done practically nothing . Ishii-san, Makoto-san and her – the things they’ve investigated are very close to the truth . ’
'That’s right . ’
Gotou agreed with Yakumo’s opinion .
When he was talking with Ishii earlier, he’d underrated him, thinking Ishii probably wouldn’t be able to get any useful information .
Gotou had thought of Ishii as the type who didn’t move unless told to .
However, this time was different . They’d decided their own direction from the situation and investigated . Ishii had grown at a much quicker speed than he had imagined .
Of course, it was the same for Haruka and Makoto .
'To be honest, I’m surprised . I would have probably searched in the same manner if I had been there . ’
Yakumo scratched his cheek awkwardly .
'Do you think you’ll get to the truth?’
'I wonder,’ Yakumo said evasively as he yawned .
Gotou stared at Yakumo’s face, but he couldn’t see his true feelings . All he could do now was believe in Yakumo .
'I’m counting on you . I can’t go home if you don’t solve the mystery . ’
'Atsuko-san and Nao might be happier if you don’t . ’
Yakumo smirked .
'Say what you want . ’
Gotou crossed his arms, looked away and walked to the wall .
– I wonder how Atsuko and Nao are doing?
Gotou had been troubled about whether or not to call home after calling Ishii . However, he decided not to in the end .
The police would probably think Gotou would call home and well probably waiting there . It was the house of a suspect, after all .
– I’ve caused trouble for them .
Gotou realised once more the weight of what he had done, but strangely, he didn’t regret it at all .
It was probably because he believed Yakumo would bring the case to an end .
'Gotou-san . ’
Yakumo was running a hand through his hair with his head facing down as he said that .
'What?’
'Could I borrow the phone?’
'Sure . ’
Gotou took the mobile out of his pocket and gave it to Yakumo .
'Thank you . ’
'Who are you calling?’
'There’s something I want to check… with her . ’
Yakumo’s words were stiff, which was unlike him .
– I see .
Gotou understood everything and stood up .
'Where are you going?’
Yakumo looked puzzled .
– There’s probably some things that’d be hard to talk about with me here .
Yakumo would probably get angry if Gotou said that, so he muttered it in his heart .
'It’s stuffy in this room . I’m going to take a nap in the temple . ’
'It’s easier to sleep on tatami . ’
'I’m fine . The wood’s cooler . ’
Gotou ended the conversation and left the archive .
When he went out into the corridor, the rain became stronger . It felt like it might cause a flood .
'Man . ’
Gotou went into the temple, used a cushion in the corner as a pillow and lay down .
Come to think of it, he’d gone without sleep or rest for these two days . His body was much more tired than he’d thought .
Gotou fell asleep –
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Haruka went into her room with a heavy heart .
After that, the Nishitama precinct detectives questioned her about the situation . Since she was Yakumo’s friends, they had clearly suspected her at first, but with the words of Youko, the Nishitama precinct detective who had been there with Ishii, she was able to be let out quickly .
Still, the things that had happened these two days had had such an impact that she was psychologically and physically exhausted .
She went into the room and lay down on the bed .
The blanket felt nice, but she didn’t feel sleepy .
– I wonder what Yakumo is doing now?
Even when she closed her eyes, questions kept coming up in her head .
'Yakumo-kun . ’
Haruka opened her eyes and called out towards the white ceiling .
As if to respond to that, her mobile phone rang .
'Hello . ’
'Yakumo-kun!’
Haruka leapt up like a spring .
Yakumo sounded nonchalant .
Though that tone irritated Haruka, she noticed that she was also relieved .
'What do you mean, carefree? You don’t know anything about how I’m feeling . ’
Yakumo said that quietly .
So many things had happened since she heard about the case . She had been very surprised and worn away at her nerves as she worried about his safety – terrible things had happened .
However, it was mysterious how that one sentence made her feel like she could forgive everything .
– The weakness of somebody in love .
'I’ll forgive you this time . ’
Haruka lay down on her bed again . Though it was the same bed, it felt more comfortable than before .
Anyway, she could hear his voice . That was enough .
'Hey, where are you now?’ asked Haruka, curling up like a cat .
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